There must be truth to what we're feeling...

For as long as I can remember, I have struggled with loneliness, though I can't really say why. There have always been loving people around me. But sometimes I feel completely alone even when with friends or family, and I never understood why. A vast majority of the depression I have dealt with over the years has come from loneliness. Never was I delusional enough to think the problem wasn't largely my fault. While this is a true realization, it did bring with it a hefty weight of guilt. This did not help, as one would imagine. I did not, however, understand why it was my fault. I just simply accepted that it was. Only recently have I begun to see that my focus was skewed. I don't want to start pointing fingers, but most of the examples around aren't the best. So then it's not far-fetched to just assume that life is empty and disconnected and you just sort of get through it. No one likes their job...No relationship is actually happy...There really isn't satisfaction in life...After all, the grass is always greener...but what happens when you realize that it's just the lighting? It's no wonder, then, that people give up, lose hope, or simply move on. Especially in a culture centered around instant gratification. If I don't like my current situation, the fault isn't my own. Why should I change when I can more easily, quickly, and painlessly change the world around me? Or better yet I could just disconnect; unplug. It's not a perfect solution, mind you, but it works...kind of. But you know, for as long as I can remember, I have struggled with loneliness, though I can't really say why...